Comeback Post

 I haven’t posted anything on my blog since ages now. Well reason being, life happened. And is still happening. 

I keep trying to heal myself and then somehow land up in the same dilemmas. And later end up doing the same things to get out of it over and over again and some how it helps too.

May be there is a pattern in this. May be universe wants me to do something different but I quiet cant figure out what. Every time i resort to tarot, “the star” card comes up. But I am no tarot card reader and I am not able to find anyone to do that for me so I cant tell what the universe is telling me exactly.

Anyways, life is going on. Its not bad. Its going on.

But I am failing to stay satisfied which I should be. Also I keep getting anxious over small small things and somehow I have convinced myself that I keep falling from one thing into another.

I realised while pointing out to others as being in victim mindset somewhere I was also doing the same. The “why me” question itself expresses “victimhood” and I dont want that.

I want to the fighter that I have always been

Slowly slowly I am learning to understand the real me and not the personality which was developed over the period of years to please those around me. At times I feel may be my hobbies and goals were also borrowed.

Well life is a journey and we learn at every moment and healing is a journey and not a destination.

I just hope to be at peace and happiness and free while at it

Thank you