Thursday, 25 December 2025

WRITING ESSAYS

As everyone else, I too am very much charged up as the year is about to end. I desperately want to do something substantial, a kind of a pre-setting for some impactful new year resolutions, like every year. So this pursuit took me to you tube. on you tube, I came across a video which mentioned importance of writing essays. That's when it occurred to me how essays used to be an integral part of us till we finished our education, not so much in professional colleges though. But at least till plus two.

That made me think, aren't these videos, reels essays too. indeed they are. It reminded me of how we used to have an introductory paragraph, then the middle body or the main matter and finally the conclusive paragraph. We were told how we can score more marks if we could add some quotes or poems and much better if they were original. It also reminded me of how in my earlier days of blogging I used to actually use this same format to write my blogs.

Later somehow with SMSs and captions for social media every thing became short and to the point. I still feel it kind of killed the creativity or the language skill in us.

I was always proud of how i would always score more marks in essay writing in language papers. I was indeed very much proud of this skill of mine. I would write original poems or quotes.

But now I feel as like happened, as I entered the professional life and the hustle, I kind of lost that creativity in me. May be it is still there somewhere inside hidden under something. But now it doesn't feel easy. I think I haven't written a poem in ages. 

So this is just a small attempt at essay writing (may be). I was thinking that now may be every now and then I will make an attempt to write some essay here at least. On this blog. I will definitely improve my way of writing and sentence forming too because I feel that is a skill I need to refine and has become blunt over the period of time.

Lets hope that you will see more of me this coming year, here on my blog.

Till then. Take care.

Wednesday, 3 December 2025

Creative Block

 


I came across this quote on Instagram yesterday and I realised how true is this and this is the answer to the very question I have been asking myself. I am not me for a few years now. I mean drawing, writing poems and books was my whole personality. Now it’s only books. It’s been a long time since I have drawn or written a poem.

You can create in sadness but never in survival mode. The constant feeling that anything can happen at any moment. May be this is the reason I couldn’t achieve anything substantial and satisfactory in the past few years.

I was wondering now, whether this thing can work vice versa too. That is lets suppose we can not create in survival mode but what if we force ourself to create, even a small start, is it possible that it will help us get out of this survival mode.

I think it will be better understood after a trial

Thursday, 9 October 2025

Comeback Post

 I haven’t posted anything on my blog since ages now. Well reason being, life happened. And is still happening. 

I keep trying to heal myself and then somehow land up in the same dilemmas. And later end up doing the same things to get out of it over and over again and some how it helps too.

May be there is a pattern in this. May be universe wants me to do something different but I quiet cant figure out what. Every time i resort to tarot, “the star” card comes up. But I am no tarot card reader and I am not able to find anyone to do that for me so I cant tell what the universe is telling me exactly.

Anyways, life is going on. Its not bad. Its going on.

But I am failing to stay satisfied which I should be. Also I keep getting anxious over small small things and somehow I have convinced myself that I keep falling from one thing into another.

I realised while pointing out to others as being in victim mindset somewhere I was also doing the same. The “why me” question itself expresses “victimhood” and I dont want that.

I want to the fighter that I have always been

Slowly slowly I am learning to understand the real me and not the personality which was developed over the period of years to please those around me. At times I feel may be my hobbies and goals were also borrowed.

Well life is a journey and we learn at every moment and healing is a journey and not a destination.

I just hope to be at peace and happiness and free while at it

Thank you 

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